Showing posts from February, 2016

Another Suitcase in Another Hall

So what happens now?

I feel this song so deeply at times. Not about my love life, which has been happily consistent for half of my life, but about my health. Since I woke up one day in January 2011 in horrific pain, I have had periods where I felt better, but overall, I have felt awful. Now it is excruciating pain in the upper right quadrant of my abdomen. It's been going on since October 18th, 2015. That feels like forever ago, which I suppose is fair since it has been over 15 weeks with little relief. They have no idea what is wrong with me and I am beginning to wonder if they ever will. I'm so tired of feeling this way. It feels like it is never going to end. WBH keeps talking about things getting better once I am better and can go back to work. What happens if I can't? At this point I have been laying flat 20-22 hours every day for weeks and am only to the point that most days don't have me crying. It's so difficult to put into words what this feels like. Xande…