For everything there is a season...

It's been a month since I wrote here and the message is still the same.  Ugh, I am so very tired of being sick.  I sneeze and cough constantly.  The only bright side is that now I have medication.  Yay for health insurance!

It has been one of the longest months of my life.  Besides having a cold and being run ragged at work -- December in Retail, what a great time -- I also have come to some decisions about me.  I decided to get help,  which has led to me taking anti-depressants and also talking to a therapist.  I have had two sessions with JP and she has already opened my eyes up to a lot of things.  I know that there is a lot about me that I want to change and get better with.  I know there are some risks that I need to take and she is helping me to see they are less risky than what I originally thought.  Still, it is going to take some gumption and I am gathering that right now.

I am also sensing an end to another season in my life.  This one is going to be a bit sadder because I worry for the way things will be left and those left behind.  I know that God was in whatever led me to this time in my life and He is leading me wherever I am going.  I know He will be in the situation I am concerned about.  Now I just need to let it go and lay that burden down at His feet.  Only He can change a heart.

Off to bed with me.  See you soon, I think!

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